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[31 Jul 2005|10:07pm] |
So today was Warped tour. That kinda sucked balls.
We got there and had to wait in line for an hour to get our tickets...people kept cutting in fron tof us. And crystal and I almost got in a fight. Well there was a lot of yelling but no punches or anything. Then once we did finally get in...we missed BOINK by like 15 minutes. I almost cried . yeah i know im stupid
But we got to see some really good bands...get our asses kicked alittle bit. Kick a little bit of ass. Got a nice tan. And I saw Jimmie fro the first time since...the whole thing. THAT WAS WEIRD. im not quite sure how I fel about that. But i got a hug so that was nice.
ON the way home I freakin crashed in the truck....I was so tired. Then I got a call from Benny...I uess he wants to hang out with me and crystal this weekend. Tats really neat to have some of my friends back. Its been a very LONG time since Ive hung out with any of those people!
And Derek called me teh other night at 230 in the morning wanting me to drive out to some party. So werid but even thoguh it was cool to have him call me. And to have him want to hang out with me. I dont want to. I dont want to do all taht stupid shit with people who just make me feel bad about myself. I wanna hang out with Jimmie. But after today...im not sure that that will happen.
He said he wanted to be my friend and stuff...but im not sure if thats really how he feels. I just cant get over the fact that 2 weeks ago....we were supposively "inlove" and now we talk 1 time a day...if im lucky...and the one time tahat I saw him we barely talked and it was all weird. I just wanted to cry.
whatever I need to go and workout...think a little bit. I need to figure out whats going on in my head
HASTA
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[28 Jul 2005|12:32am] |
I THOUGHT YOU SHOULD KNOW
HOW BLESSED I REALLY AM
TO HAVE FOUND A BEST FRIEND
IN THE PERFECT MAN
Kami I can totally agree with you!
I havent been at my house...alone in like a week. Crystal hasnt left my side since...well yeah since then! I just cant stand to be home and think...but it seems like when im out..(nothinking) thats all i can do is think.
I think about Jimmie...I think about how stupid i was...I think about how good he made me feel on my birthday. I think about how it felt to have him hold me. I think about teh fact that I cnat tell him i love him anymore. I think about teh fact that I promised him I would make his birthday better than it was last year...and now I cant. He probably hates me right now cause im a fucking dumbass!
Ok people so if you didnt know...I quit smoking. Because well for one its disgusting and bad for you...and 2 because jimmie hates it. Well Ya know..on Thursday I kind of flipped. I felt like I was going to die...and I smoked part of a cigarette. Way to ruin everything!
I have sat here for the past 6 days feeling sorry for myself. Depressed tired...lonely...crushed...all of teh above..and much more..And teh only thing tat has gotten me through this is knowing...that maybe...just maybe...Jimmie would start to miss me. And decide that this whole breakup was a mistake...he owuld want to be with me again and I would have a chance to make things work this time.
And then like always I go and fuck it all up! Im nothing if not predictable!! I always find a way to turn everything good in my life into shit! I tell you. Im cursed.
No im just a fuck up!
I feel like im going insane. I feel like IM falling into this deep hole. I listen to all this psycho i hate myself talk that keeps spilling out of my mouth. and it just makes me want to slap myself! Its a very vicious cycle!
And all I want is be the person that Jimmie wants to be with. And for some reason...no matter how much I WANT it..I cant make it happen. BEcause I will always be...ME!
I HAD THE BEST BOYFRIEND THAT A GIRL COULD EVER ASK FOR. BUT AMIDST MY DREAMS I SEMMED TO HAVE FORGOTTEN TO ASK TO BE THE BEST GIRL HE WOULD EVER ASK FOR!
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[23 Jul 2005|11:35pm] |
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Ive got a theory for life
IT SUCKS!!! And you cant take any theory and apply it to your life. Because you will be unmistakebly wrong! It just doesnt work. The human mind is flawed and it cant grasp the concept of life or love. It just cant. We need to come to terms with that. We are to simpleminded.
Anyone up for a road trip? Itll be a grand time!!! I need to have a life. ANd I need to get away...A road trip is what i need. Away from my everyday life. That actually I dont have anymore i guess.
Cause my everyday...is not my everyday anymore
Im only 2 days into my new life..
But so far...it consists of 5 things.
1.crying
2.puking
3.crying some more
4.talking to myself
5.and then puking again
Its quite interesting actually. Ive figured this out....
If I puke within 15 minutes of eating...on the average you throw up about half of your food that you have just eaten. SO if i puke everytime I eat...that means...
I eat on average 3500 calories everyday....so im throwing up 1750 each day. and tehn the average person burns about 1900 calories a day...just doign normal things.
So that means everyday i should be losing 1 pound....the human skeleton weighs on average 75 pounds.so...since i weigh 103 now...in about 28 days of this shit...i would have nothing left on me. Which means I can only survive for about 13 more days of this.
Wonderful isnt it. Looking at this and knowing that I have no control over my weight loss and if things proceed i should die in 13 days. GOod thing it wont go that far!!! lol
Wow i think i just creeped myself out! like woah!
so other than this stuff..what has been going on with my life...ahhh!!! work..work sucks asshole..I get hit on everyday by a sex offender, I hate my managers I have suck hours and usually work with suck people! I make no money..and well I just hate it!
ahh yes i need to be done with this now...
HASTA
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[22 Jul 2005|10:06pm] |
so today absolutely sucked.
I shouldnt even have gone to work. I went to bed at like 5, and woke up at 730 and couldnt get back to sleep. So i just sat in front of my toilet puking for 2 hours. It was fun. Then got up went to work. No shower no makeup. And worked with Lindsay..I swear every time i work with her i look like shit. Gah so much for a good impression.
But I have a feeling she likes me even though i look hideous everytime we work together.
So then after work I chilled with crystals mom for a few hours until crystal got out. Then had to drive home with no id and 1 head light. SO bout half way i had crystal drive. Now Im at home with crystal bored out of my mind...ready to sit around and feel sorry for myself...on with teh pity party
If I were smart I would smack myself now. I havent prayed in...ehh lets just say to long. And last night i did...what a dumbass. I pray for teh stupidest things. Im selfish. Is that normal. Ive accepted the fact that im going to hell. lol.
yeah im done..
HASTA
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[22 Jul 2005|03:45am] |
I want to slit these wrists
To let this pain bleed out
but this heart is done beating
And my eyes to dry to cry
anymore
**EDIT**
Sorry...not really sure why the hell I wrote that.
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[22 Jul 2005|12:30am] |
Mmm so...today....hmm
Got up...went to my house...went to meijer to cash in some change...29.00
thats all I have. well now I only have 18.
Went to a show at the Temple club...Vega Lovedrug Anathello and Skyway
Good bands, but really not my kind of concert. Didnt do much for me. Plus I was tired, freezing and extremely hungry.
And I dont think it went over well that I left early. But I guess that everything I do upsets someone. I guess I just cant make everyone happy. Poor me...pity me.
So now Im at my house...still tired, bored and stuffed to the verge of puking. Pity me
I dont want to go to work in the morning. I dont want to shower, I dont want to do my laundry. pity me
For some reason I have an urge. THE urge. Whatever
I dont know exazctly what is going on at the moment. ANd im not sure how to explain what I mean. I feel like there is something that everyone is keeping from me. Like I am the only person left out of the loop on a very big secret. Im not sure how this is happening. Wonderful isnt it?!?!?!
Will somebody please let me know what the hell is going on.
Well I guess SOMEONE is who im asking..its a certain someone..but thats the someone thats hiding the secret. pity me
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[27 Jun 2005|08:02pm] |
So its been a very very long time. Cassandra reminded me of that!! Lol.
But yeah....I dont rememebr what I wrote in my lat entry. But basically all I hgave been doing is working and hanging out with jimmie. And crystal. i dont ever see Amanda anymore...shes to bussy hanging out with her boyfriend ALL the time in Charlotte. So basically its been about 3 weeks since I have talked to her for more than 5 minutes. But yeah...im not bitter at all....
Lets see....Pizza hut has actually turned out to be a fun place to work again. Even if I make crap for money. I work with Crystal which is nice. My managers are all pretty cool. and ive become friends with Lindsay clements. Shes so cute! lol. I really like working with her.
Lets see...I want a new tattoo...i was going to get one like a week ago...but...I bought jeans instead...i cant even talk about teh jeans!! Lol. I spent way to much money on them! for real. We just dont even mentiopn that I bought them! LOL
But yeah so after i pay my 256 dollar car insurance for the month. im thinking about getting that tattoo. Its gonna be a hibiscus flower...on my shoulder/chest. itll be neat, and very painful at the same time! : / Im not sure how im going to react to it...i just might cry! lol
I seriously want to move out of my house. Not that things have been going especially bad lately or anything. im just ready to be gone. And out of my moms house ya know. I really would liek to move into an apartment or sumthing with Crystal....but I dunno....I would like to move to Grand Rapids some time ...so who knows. Plus I dont have the mullah to move o9ut at this moment!!
So today I was asked to be some promotional girl for a drink...alcoholic drink. Im not sure how I feel about that. it would be cool cause I would get to meet a lot of new people...and make some money. Plus it may help the whole modeling thing. but i dunnno...I dont drink and im not sure that it would be right for me to advertise and try to get people TO DRINK!!! ya know. Plus...I would have to go to a lot of partys and stuff thrown by like beer companies...and all taht jazz. I dunno i think that would be a very uncomfortable situation. Especially because I dont drink. And im DEF> not a party kind of girl...ya know
But man do i need taht money...it would pay pretty dang well!!! ehh
I went to Grand Haven yesturday. That was pretty fun. I got an alright tan. Im not so pale anymore. but im still fairly white!!! When we first got there....there was this little girl...prolly like 7 months old...and she was crawling around the beach butt naked! it was so darn cute!!! lol....Is that sick of me to think that thats cute????w ell oh well...it was precious!!
So yeah im not sure what else to write at this moment...except that I love my boyfriend!! lol thats right!!!!
HASTA
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[09 Jun 2005|11:25pm] |
I love you more than anything in the world! More than anyone. Noone could ever come close to what I feel for you.
Im not sure what I should say or what I should do to try to make things better. This is all so crazy, and just stupid. I love you with all of my heart, and I dont want anythign except to be with you! I would never do anything to hurt you. And Im sorry that this hurts so badly!
I know that what Im feeling is nothing close to what you feel. im sure of it. But I dont know how to make things better again.
But I need to explain all of this to you! I know you probably dont want to talk to me right now. I completely understand...But please....
This stuff seriously needs to be sorted out!
I love you
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[01 Jun 2005|06:18pm] |
12 DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY!!!!
10 DAYS UNTIL THE FROM FIRST TO LAST CONCERT!!!!
And I get to go to the beach! Im so excited. My white ass is gonna burn though! lol...well I guess theres a first for everything. im gonna have to burn at some point in my life right?!?!?
So Right now Im super hooked on this song...by Motion City Soundtrack...its called the future freaks me out! Omg its awesome! And way catchy. Its one of those songs that I put on repeat and justlisten to for liek an hour. And I havent gotten tired of it yet! YAY!
So I went to Indian Ink (Stuck on You) today. I took my tongue ring out for like a month...prolly a little longer. Well tyhen at crystals...they wanted to see if I could still get something in it. So i did. it hurt quite a bit but I got a bar through it. But now theres like this bump on the inside of my tongue from scar tissue. So i had to go ask Sandy if I was going to die. LOL. But she said that its fine...that it should go away in the next couple of days.
Im thinking about getting a half sleeve on my right arm. Its gonna be soo sweet. i already have a couple ideas. They make me happy. But I kind of need to get a job first and stuff so I can actually pay for it ya know! But basically its gonna be really girlly with really bright colors. Most of the stuff Im getting is all different kinds of flowers...and these skull like things. But they arent scary skulls, theyre cute.
But yeah I think it. im not sure Jimmie will like that I have a half sleeve though! LOL> Good thing he loves me eh?!?!?!
I really feel like taking some pictures of people right now. Crystal in particular. But I want someone new too. Hmmmm...so if anyone wants to model for me...I NEED YOU! lol. I made this thing on photoshop last night...its so cute... here it is..
OH AND ABRIGUE means cherish in Spanish.
Yeah but i think its cute.
Thats just my opinion.
Uhh i really want to get a tattoooooooo!!!! mmmhhhmmmm!!
So i got in this crazy fight with my mom last night! Uhhh i just want to move out. Cause I really like my mom. Ya know..i love talking to her, but for real I just need to get out of this house. Because if I dont were just going to keep fighting. And I want us to be close ya know. I dont like fighting with her at all!
uhh yeah My teeth feel gross so Im gonna go brush em!
HASTA
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[23 May 2005|07:35pm] |
" So yesturday I went down to the shop. It was super boring! I had basially NOTHING to do. But i did get to pierce Mikes belly button. Its sweet lookin. i wonder if hell actually keep it in. Sandy taught me how to pierce labrets and offset labrets today. that was neat, but its pretty much common sense. Put the clap on...look for veins...Pierce from inside to out, pierce it straight...slide ther needle out and slide the jewlery on! SIMPLE!
Jimmie Deeghan came into the shop today. Uhh hes so cute! For real. Im gonna go to his show tomorrow. Im excited!! I wanna talk to him...but im a wuss!! Crystal told me that i hsould start talking to him she agrees with me that hes way hot. But see...its JIMMIE DEEGHAN! Hes not exactly the guy of guy that would like ME!"
Hahaha that was an entry that I wrote in my diary like a LONG time ago. Like almost 9 months ago!! And look where I am now!! IN LOVE! Somtimes I really like my life! lol
My hair is finally starting to grow out! Its really annoying me cause it looks all akward and stuff. But its getting better now, its growing past that akward phase. I need to do something qwith the color though. ZIm getting bored with it!
So jeff is going to give me some earrings..so im stretching my ears bigger! YAY! It makes me so happy. But my ears are never going to heal back up again! lol. Im going to be 90 with half inch ears! hahah. Ewww what a sick mental picture!
I really want to get out of my house. I need to find a job in eaton Rapids. So i can get my car fixed. And then As soon as I get all that jazz taken care ofmaybe i will move to Grand Rapids. That would make a lot of things a lot easier! Its kind of scary thinking about moving out of my house though. In a way. But exciting at the same time!
I was supposed to take pictures of my brothers band yesturday..btu Jared got called into work so they couldnt do it. Which kind of sucks. I just want to get it over and done with! Mainly cause i have some really cool photoshop ideas!! mhmm they gonna be SAWEET!
Well yeah this is getting really long...so im gonna get off for now
HASTA
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[16 May 2005|03:04am] |
Mmkkk so its been a really long time! But I dont want to write much...even though i have a lot to tell you. Because im really tired. But so here goes...On Thursday Amanda and I went to Jimmies show at the Red Ribbon Hall. Amlost got into a little fight with chelsea cause she came up to me and started yelling at me and stuff. But it all got worked out and We talked about the whole thing. And I dont think things are straightened out by any means...but atleast they are BETTER.
The show was pretty good. Excapt for hit the Lights couldnt play. And then Nural was 2 hours late! : / But oh well I had fun. Lots of fun. Plus it was awesome to be able to see Jimmie and stuff.
Then on friday was my brothers show. His first show ever. Well just about all the other bands fucking...yeah im not even gonna talk abotu them. But my brotehrs band did really well. I was very impressed! To say the least. And i was very proud of him! Like yeah! I took a ton of pictures...there are actually a few really good ones!
Today Jimmie came over, and we went to the skate park. That was fun. I finally skated with him. Well kind of with him. And i went down the big...well should i say (biggER) ramp! lol. It took me a long time to get the guts to do it by myself. But i did end up doing it. But the foirst time i did it without jimmies help.....i fell on my butt! lol. But its all good.
i really want to go to the skate park with him in charlotte tomorrow morning. But we have to take family picturtes tomorrow. So we wouldnt have time to. So that really sucks. So i think im just gonna try and find a few dollars and drive out to jimmies house tomorrow after pictures. I think hell like that. And i really wanna go out there and see him. And i want to make up for not driving out there last time! : (
But yeah im super tired...so im bout to crash...CYA
HASTA
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[11 May 2005|06:02pm] |
I feel like shit right now. On the way home from Crystals I had to stop my car on M99 so i could friggin puke. It was disgusting. Like when I say dusgusting...thats exactly what I mean. So now my stomache is all gross...but i havent puked again yet. And that was almost 2 hours ago. So hopefully Ill be fine now.
But I called Jimmie to ask if he would be super pissed if i didnt drive out to his house tonight. Yeah I think he is! But gosh Im sorry. I feel like poop. And I have to get up WAY early to babysit for crystals 4 year nephew tomorrow. And then come home take a shower and everything, and then go to the show at the red ribbon hall. I hate making him mad at me!
Well atleast last night was cool. I spent the night at Crystals. We talked ALOT, had some fun...watched TV...blah blah, nothing special. But it was still fun. Then this morning her nephew came over, cause crystal had to baby sit him. He was pretty good today. Sometimes hes a little hellian. But yeah we just played around and watched a couple movies. I think he has a crush on me. LOL. I should prolly let him know that im taken eh?? Hahaha
So chelsea matonis. Yeah I dont like her very much right now. I mean i dont think we were ever really friends, but right now. I would really like to hurt her. She messed a lot of stuff up. (not completely her faul) But still. I dont like her very much. But maybe im not teh one to say anythign to her. So I might just have to let that one go for now.
So.. Ray added me today on myspace. Its kind of nice to know that he still knows im a live and everything. Since it has been about a year since we have even talked. But it kind of weirded me out at the same time. At first i thought he was just adding me so that he could post a nasty comment about me or sumthing. But i guess well see. Hopefully, its not that, and he just added me because he wants to be friends.
So the past few nights Ive been having REALLY upsetting dreams. And they are starting to make me get kind of worried. Why do I have to have 4 dreams in a row that are not pleasing. AT ALL. And they all have to do with Jimmie. GRRRR.
So yeah. I want to be happy. I mean I guess I am happy. Im hapy with Jimmie. Im happy with my friends (the 2 that I have). But im not HAPPY. I always feel sad. And I hate it. I feel worthless.
Slap a price tag on my forehead and mark it FREE.
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[07 May 2005|01:15am] |
I need somrthing to look forward to.
Something to get me through the days. I have nothign to do when I sit at home. I dont even get to see Jimmie. I saw him yesturday for the first time in a week. No fun! And ts all because I dont have the stinking gas money to drive out ot see him. And he has a job so he has a lot less time to come and see me.
The only thing I have to look forward to is my birthday. Which i am failry excited about that. 38 days until i am 19. Thats awesome. But nothing really happens when i turn 19. Except for...
*My mom takes away my phone
*i am one year older, and one year closer to retirement
*I have 1 year left to find the money to fix my car up
*I have 1 year left until I have to move out of my moms house
Yeah thats about it. Sounds like a real thriller eh? But I will get to spend time with Jimmie for my birthday, Taht will be nice.
Its seems like I know most of my friends better than they know themselves. Yet it doesnt seem like any of friends really know me at all.
When my friends are sad, I can usually cheer em up.
I usually know what to say to make them feel better
I know how far i can push them
I knwo how much critisism they can take
I know exactly what to get them for presents
I knwo what they do when theyre nervous
I know when somethign is wrong
I knwo when theyre lieing
My friends wouldnt know i was lieing if I told them i was black!
And they wouldnt know taht when I complain about my weight...not say...nuh uh you look hott!
And tehy would know that Im a big girl, and they dont need to walk on egg shells for me. That I can take whatever it is that they want to tell me!
And as for making me feel better when Im upset....theres MAYBE 2 people that know what to say. And I think they just get lucky!
Im kind of mad that my brother's badn "kicked Jeff out of the band" I think its totally rude. The least they could have done was had him play this one show and talked to him about it. Instead they decided to WAIT to tell him and let Jared into the band. WHATEVER
This week has been kind of weird...
*I wrote a song...(never happens)
*I talked to 2 people from Ohio that I havent talked to in about 8 years (weird)
*Derek called me(even weirder)
*I had a dream about my real dad(I woke up crying)
*I swear I saw a ghost(And for some reason, it didnt scare me)
*I saw Brittany Gilliland(she flipped me off) : )
I dunno whats up. For some reason I have a feeling that something from my past is going to bite me in the ass. I dont have anything to hide really....but for some reason, I think somethign is about to explode. And its starting to scare me.
AHHHH
HASTA
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[05 May 2005|08:39pm] |
HEY COME CHECK OUT THESE SEXXY BEASTS! ITLL BE AN AWESOME SHOW!
ITS OLT'S FIRST SHOW TOGETHER WITH THESE PEOPLE. SO SERIOUSLY COME CHECK EM OUT!
BY THE WAY....
SINGER=BRANDON HAUCK!
GUITARIST=JEFFERY RENTON!
:)
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[01 May 2005|08:38pm] |
I feel like Im a 5 year old little girl lost at the fair all by herself. And all I want to do is go home. But i cant find my way.
I know it sounds pathetic. But thats how I feel. And it isnt fair. I need to just get this job that my mom is trying to hook me up with..and get over it. Pay my mom her stinkin money and grow like she says i guess.
Yeah she says its time for me to grow up, because i asked if i was goign to have to take out my monroe and my nose stud. She just turned away from me and was like well samm...yeah youll probably have to grow up finally. And move on with your life. WTF how rude. I think that in the past 3 years...I have done a lot of growing. MUCH more than any other girl should have to at that age!
I dont understand why she hates me all of a sudden. Like my brother went to Ichthus right..And my mom basically cried when he left because "its so hard for her to let him leave her side". But me...Oh yeah, I said i wanted to move to California as soon as I get a job and save up enough to do it. And she didnt even look at me while i was talking to her, and shes like yeah thats a good idea. And then walked away!
I dont understand what the hell i did.
I dont know where to go from here. Nothing seems quite as exciting as before. Basically the only thing I look forward to is seeing Jimmie. And now I only get to see him about half as much as i used to. But when (if) i get that job, then ill have money to see him more often.
That might as well be what i focus on...seeing huim...because at the moment thats the only thing that makes me happy.
God im a douche bag!!!!
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[01 May 2005|12:53pm] |
So i saw that Kami had a thing on her lj...what does your birthdate mean?? So i looked mine up...NOT FLATTERING at all! Yeah thats predictable. Its like i avoid responsibilty, i get bored easily, blah blah blah. Whatever
I dont htink I get bored easily. Maybe bored during the day, but not bored with my life or anything. Atleast not lately. But this is what it SHOULD say...
YOU HAVE NO MOTIVATION
YOU GET INSANELY JEALOUS OVER STUPID THINGS
YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO SPEAK YOUR MIND WHEN YOUR UPSET
YOU ALMOST ALWAYS SAY THE WRONG THING
YOU ARE EASILY DEPRESSED
YOU ALWAYS LOSE
GIRLS THINK YOURE HOTTER THAN GUYS DO
YOUR NOT VERY GOOD AT KEEPING FRIENDS
YOU FALL VERY QUICKLY
YOU NEED A LIFE
thats what "what does your birth date mean" should say. But its wrong. I dont get bored easily! How stupid!
I dont know why I have been feeling so crappy the past couple of days. its not fair! Ive just been kind of depressed i guess. Maybe its because my sister threatened to kill me. Is it bad that im afraid of my 11 year old sister? I mean im not afraid of her during teh day, but when im asleep. Yeah! Shes crazy! But i think shes over the whole thing now. She just has a moment when she flips out and goes crazxy. And acts like a total maniac. But then once she goes to bed, she wakes up and shes a completely different person.
Who knows. I guess I cant really blame the way im feeling on her though.
I need happy pills! For sure!
So one of my moms clients said that she was goign to try to get me a job at MSU. I really appreciate my mom doing that. But I really dont want teh job. Im going to have to sit in an office from 9-5 mon-friday. How fun does that sound?!?!?! AND if my mom has to work until 9 that night. Then I have to stay until 9. Because Ill be riding with my mom to work and shell drop me off.
This Sucks. I wish I just had a different job so I could pay my mom her damn insurance money. Its bugging the hell out of me. I dont even want a car anymore. It causes so many freaking problems with my mom. I dont care if i dont have any money to myself. Screw it!
I need happy pills...some pumpkin pie....and just a couple of tears
Whatever I feel like a jackass so im done now
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[28 Apr 2005|11:51pm] |
Mmmk so i posted the pictures of mim, but i never got to posting the pictures that I took of crystal. So i decided that i would do that!!! : ) So here they are
( Crystal Marie )
Ok so yeah other that that how have i been lately? I dunno, I havent been keeping up with writing in this thing!!! Well last night I drove out to jimmies house that was pretty awesome. Tahts the first time that I have driven there and actually gotten the whole way! : ) Last time I hood flew up into my windshield!!! : (
But yeah it was all cool this time, and I had a really nice time there!
Im glad that now my car is ok to drive to his house. But now i still need a damn job! Ive gone out like 5 times i think and filled out like a million applications each time. But i guess i need to go again! It kinda sucks though! Cause i just want to have a damn job, so i have money for gas. That way I can drive out to see Jimmie all the time! : )
Mkk so i have discovered, I think i am finally ready to actually sing for people. im pretty much over my whole stage fright thing. im still pretty nervous to sing in front of Jimmie though. But seriously, Its kind of pointless to like singing so much and keep it all to myself! Thats just weird! dont ya think?!?!?! Well i do!
So yeah other than that. I dont have anything to write really. So yea..
HASTA
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[24 Apr 2005|06:57pm] |
So last night I went with "BOINK" and Tim from Faces of Valor to Soutbend Indiana. We went to a Rockfest thingy which was pretty cool. Boink played, they were pretty good. Jimmie said they were terrible though...whatever he is very critical. lol. : )
Hit the Lights was there. They were really good. i like them better though when they played at the bowling alley. For some reason it was more fun. Oh and I htink I had a dream about Colin last night...well not ABOUT him, but he was in it. But it was really screwed up, so im not sure. I think so though.
It took Us about 4 and a half hours to get to Lake Odessa last night from Southbend cause the roads were so bad! And we didnt leave the show until like 1 ish i think. It sucked! And i was sooo exhausted! Jimmie and I just fell asleep in the back of the van! Im glad because i dont htink I could have handled the nearly 5 hour drive! And then...once we got to jimmies house, he had to go straight to bed...cause we didnt get to his house until about 530 i think. And he had to wake up 845 to go to work! : ( BUMMER! So Tim and I left...blah blah blah...Roads werent all THAT bad on the way to my house. And then Tim and I were talking, and he was like yeah youll be home in about 15 minutes. I was like no, atleast half an hour cause were almost half way home. And than all of a sudden, the roads werent so great at all, and he lost control of the car. It was pretty scary, It was like OMG im gonna die. But all i was thinking was PLEASE DONT FLIP PLEASE DONT FLIP! But we didnt flip. Just spun off the road and into a pretty nice ditch. We got lucky though and didnt hit a tree or anything!
But I seriously thought we werent going to be able to get the car out of teh ditch. But it only took a couple of minutes and we were out. And dont think theres any damage tyo the car. And were both alright, my neck kind of hurts a little bit....But knowing me, thats prolly just from sleeping in some funny position! lol. SO yeah.
Crazy thing was....5 minutes before that I was looking outside and it was seriously soooo snowy and so white, the streets were covered in snow, and I could feel the car fishtail every once ina while. And i was lokoing out my window and I just started praying for some reason. Just that wed get home safe. And that Shaun and Joh Paul got home safe(they had to drive on the HIGHWAY!!) and then BAM
Pretty stinkin crazy! But yeah, gotta go, Im bout to watch Texas Chainsaw MAssacre with my mom brandon and ALex
HASTA
Oh...crystal send me your email addy, so i can send you those pictures!!!!
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[20 Apr 2005|11:45pm] |
HEY GUYS CHECK THIS OUT!!! ITS GONNA KICK ASS!!! FOR SURE!!!
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